Not my inspiration

Nobody else can kill my enthusiasm quicker than my art director. I dread having to discuss projects with her b/c she makes me feel so terrible. I'm sure I could be growing as a designer at a much quicker rate than this if she knew how to be a better manager. Now, I'm not trying to be a blame shifter. I understand that some of the responsibility is mine as well. I need to be open to her and what she has to say and I get it. I want to be. I try to be. But when I go to her to present some ideas and the first thing she does is interrupt me and kill the idea b/c it isn't  her preference, well, I'm just not that comfortable or encouraged to keep sharing my ideas. It makes me feel stupid and dumb for having my ideas and I am so tired of it. We have received more positive feedback on my designs/projects than on hers. In fact, she has received negative feedback. Now, my designs don't always rock but I am just so freakin' frustrated. I don't think I am being super sensitive asking for a little positive reinforcment and a little help growing into my designs not hers. And I can only handle hearing her say, well I don't/didn't like that at all.

My designer buzz is dead. I hope not for the day b/c I have a lot to do.

Why can't she learn to grow as a people-person/manager.

I execrate her.

I just want to be a better, confident designer. And it seems like she is doing her best to keep me down.

She shouldn't have this much power over me.

I curse her.