inadequecies

Do i not satisfy him because i am inadequate? Or do i not satisfy him because hd does not love me romantically? is a lack of sex destroying the romance or is a lack of romance destroying the sex?

Caring so much is destroying me. if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. regardless of how much i want it. i want the one to be him, but if it turns out he isn't the one for me, and i am not the one for him, then i just have to accept it. i can already envision myself, a destroyed vixen, wandering, seductive, but never open. emotionally removed, the walls rebuilt.

but who knows what the future will bring.

i will just have to face it and trust it and know that i tried.

fuck that. i just want to rock his world.

Untitled Poem 1

Hollow.
         Tunnels of misapprehension.
Begotten gloom
   No hope
   No possibility.

Time; a human concept
                Fabricates a possible reality.
   For tomorrow may not happen.