On becoming a Sex Goddess: My Journey

As embarassing as it is to admit, I recently was broken up with by my boyfriend of nearly four years (no, that wasn't the embarassing part), for a few reasons, one of them being that I lack confidence and can't "seal the deal" in bed. I was originally going to run and hide under my bed and vow to become celibant to avoid future humiliation.

However today I have decided that I am going to thrust myself into a makeover. I am going to research and retrain myself to lose my cute nature (the little girl mentality is really hurting me. I am now closer to 30 and still feel like I have yet to become an adult. I don't know quite when such a transition occurs, but I know it hasn't happened for me yet. I do not consider myself a women, but a girl.) The cute nature does not help me succeed (for the record, I am quite short and have a very childish voice. I wear a size 4 shoe (and yet a 32DD bra, figure that one out). )

For the longest time I have always wanted to be an Audrey Hepburn, but have slowly realized I am a Marilyn Monroe. So, I am going to cultivate my inner goddess and explode with confidence and sexual deviance.

I have already begun trying to lower my voice. In the career world, having this annoying childish voice does not help me emmanate leadership and authority. And I was just informed during this break up, that it doesn't help establish myself as a sex goddess when I sound more like Lisa Simpson and less like Aphrodite.

I also just bought 11 books on Amazon to help me go from cute to sexy, from "virgin" to Goddess in bed. I am determined to be amazing. I will be a sexy, gorgeous sex kitten. If I can understand and discuss Plato, I can speak Sexy Sex Goddess.

I intend to document my journey on this blog to track my progress, and hopefully get comments, tips, techniques and help from any readers out there, and maybe, just maybe, help another 20-something female in my situation.

At this stage, I am awaiting the delivery of my newly purchased books. But I fully  intend on going through my library and revisiting any books like this I may already own. So more on this topic tonight.